Second Saturn Return Sea Change Emerging (or I want my Life back!)

Even though my Second Saturn Return was completed last June the effect seems sustained because Saturn has gone on to square my Mars, Mercury and ASC. The seven year Saturn cycle is coming up for completion this August when Saturn will form the final T-square with the ASC/DES. Even though Saturn won’t actually conjunct my MC until September 2008, having it forming that T-square sure feels much the same to me since I am in the contemplation phase of deciding when to retire from my day job!

It is always interesting to follow our Saturn cycles and watch how they impact our charts, especially the angles. For me when Saturn was crossing my Descendant seven years ago I started working out in public again after spending the previous seven years or so working at home. Now it looks like I will go back to working at home but with a slightly different emphasis in the not too distant future. The reason I said “sea change” is because I’m feeling a deep internal flux going on. One of those changes that started with the Saturn Return and is so subtle and deep it takes awhile to sense much less articulate. I’m beginning to understand why many people choose to do something entirely different with their lives after turning 60 or so. What used to command my attention no longer does and I’m finding a strong desire to focus on doing what I wish to do rather than meeting the expectations of others. This feels quite different from the Uranian effect that asks us to focus on our authentic selves and take action. This feels more like being pretty much indifferent to external clamoring and much more attuned to internal desires.
Because I am at my core a creative being (as most of us are if we pay attention . . .), what I wish to do is put energy into the writing I’m doing and finding time to start work on my next handspun vest commissions. Plus I’m just tired of always being waaaay behind in working in my yard and gardens. They have been getting a lick and a promise for longer than I care to think about and working in my flowerbeds is deeply rewarding for someone with Taurus on the cusp of the 6th House. It’s time to focus on engaging that Taurus on the 6th and Virgo on the MC as Earth is in very short supply in my chart and this is where I can find balance. Given my druthers I prefer to work in a methodical, thorough fashion with attention to detail – probably why spinning, knitting and weaving are so appealing.

An aside on Mars transiting my 4th house . . . my Aries decided it was time to wash ALL the windows in our 2 story house. He washed the outsides and I the insides – which meant both sides of the removable inner pane. Hey, it’s amazing how great the windows look now!
The top photo is a selection of some of my fancy daffodils including the Salome (the pink trumpet). Then there’s my Mouse dog supervising . . . 🙂

23 responses to “Second Saturn Return Sea Change Emerging (or I want my Life back!)

  1. It’s amazing the difference clean windows make. The sun streams in that much more brightly and warmly, and one’s gaze from the inside out carries further and picks out things it might not otherwise notice — like the emerging butterflies and all manner of birds flitting by with nesting materials in their beak.Wish it were as easy to clean one’s ‘soul windows’!Good luck with the new commission. I can just imagine how you must be itching to get going with it! I shall be looking forward to photos as the project takes off and progresses! 🙂

  2. It’s amazing the difference clean windows make. The sun streams in that much more brightly and warmly, and one’s gaze from the inside out carries further and picks out things it might not otherwise notice — like the emerging butterflies and all manner of birds flitting by with nesting materials in their beak.Yes, indeed! We were looking out and saw the first Audubon warbler of the season plus Friday we watched a red-tail hawk land on the ground about 50′ away. He sat there for quite awhile before flying off with vole in his talons….most impressive.oh yes, i agree about the ‘soul windows’ . . . . 🙂

  3. hmmm…I would rather replace my windows than wash them. (no, really, they need replacing desperately.) Interesting that you and Pat are going through career re-arrangements at the moment. Work is very much on my mind.I have never heard of an Audubon warbler. My favorite birds (other than Tom & Bud, the herons I see continuously) are barn swallows. Such a pretty little bird. Strange thought processes that I have…from birds to cats. My cat Maki has started seriously watching TV. It’s not even on a nature channel. Regular tv. He just sits there in front of it like a toddler and watches. most strange cat.

  4. Casey!! I was wondering how you are doing & whether things had started to pick up speed at your work place . . .I love swallows too. When they show up in the evenings to catch bugs and swoop around, I love watching them. Thought about attempting to take a photo and realized my little camera is nowhere near fast enough.Strange thought processes that I have…from birds to cats. My cat Maki has started seriously watching TV. It’s not even on a nature channel. Regular tv. He just sits there in front of it like a toddler and watches. most strange cat.Ha, Ha, Ha!! I sometimes think cats do things like that just to mess with us . . . 🙂 And since cats tend to obsess over birds, to go from birds to cats makes complete sense.Speaking of toddlers, how is your Pookie doing? I catch just a small glimpse of a segment on autism on the news, oh quite awhile ago now, and was thinking of your concerns. The gist was if a toddler responds to his/her name when the person speaking is not in their line of sight, then it’s unlikely the child is autistic.My grand babies are getting cuter by the day . . . of course!!! 🙂

  5. Pookie’s been getting one-on-one attention at day care and they’ve been working very hard with him. He’s doing much better, is potty-trained, and Mom&Dad are working on making him actually ask for things, instead of pointing and grunting like a little neanderthal. So I think the autism worries are receding. It was just bad timing of the second baby and a regression and added need for attention.So funny, my son called last week (looking for a babysitter next week) and got the 7-month old on the phone. Jace was crying and my son was saying “And what about me, Grandma? Whatt about me?” in this little voice. So I haven’t ever babysat the little one yet. And I guess I’ve been neglecting him. The one project we have in-house is suddenly moving. Now if we only would get more in. My boss reamed me out today for relying too heavily on “automatic picking” when they WANT me to do automatic picking to get quick results! SO annoying! I have TOLD him that good results come from me fastening my eyeballs on every shot and fixing by hand but no! that’s too slow. But auto picking is not good enough! This is the age-old dilemma of my job — the Piscean paradox, always something and its opposite all at the same time. Duality. Fish swimming in opposite directions chained together. All in the ever-continuing quest to improve productivity and shorten the number of geo-days assigned to a blasted project. I keep telling him that those geo-days will need to be accounted for somewhere — I mean, I’m HERE everyday anyway. There is no category for “twiddling thumbs.” What am I supposed to do with my geo-days? But this is supposedly what drives our bids up and why we’re not getting work. IT’S ALL MY FAULT. sorry you asked?

  6. sorry you asked?ROFL!!!! One of the reasons I’m ready to retire is the realization that I’m tired of feeling like pushing a limp noodle up hill . . . Very good to hear Pookie is fine & beginning to get over the second baby syndrome. Sometimes we as adults forget just how bright and manipulative toddlers are. I know my Gemini stepdaughter is going to have her hands full with her little fish – and we’ll enjoy every minute of it! BTW, there was enough yarn left from the baby blankets to knit each baby a sweater & matching mittens for their first Xmas. Yes, I have a bad case . . . 🙂

  7. I’m tired of feeling like pushing a limp noodle up hill . . . OMG I just about fell over laughing. That sounds like the last few months for me. At least I can laugh about it…

  8. OMG I just about fell over laughing. That sounds like the last few months for me. At least I can laugh about it…The option other than laughing is not pretty . . . 🙂 Did you see the Salome daffs?! There is something about the transitory nature of blooms that makes them seem even more beautiful.Lisa Dale Miller’s post on the Full Moon in Scorpio is dynamite this time: Full Moon in ScorpioFortunately it’s at 11 Scorp . . . 🙂

  9. Yep, I noticed the daffodls. I have a few blooming now, so new they’re at the yellow stage. :o)

  10. Such pretty daffodils.I will be spending the weekend after the full moon transporting food from restaurants to the Houston Wortham Center for a big benefit for the U.N. choir (and the U.N.) I think that fits fairly well in the mood of this full moon with my own moon in Scorpio. We can thank Eve for volunteering me.On a different note, remember my Cancer Drama Queen friend? That I told at Xmas that I just couldn’t handle the drama anymore? I believe her house has been foreclosed on. Lee thinks I need to contact her since I’m obviously worrying about her. I am not a good friend, I’m afraid.

  11. Yep, I noticed the daffodls. I have a few blooming now, so new they’re at the yellow stage. :o)Wonderful, aren’t they?! It’s been a cold Spring here so far, and if what I’ve seen on the Nat’l weather reports is even halfway close, yours has been colder yet. We had our first asparagus for dinner last night and it’s almost May. Very, very tasty . . .I usually wait until at least the first week in May to start transplanting annuals or tender perennials to avoid having them frozen solid.

  12. I will be spending the weekend after the full moon transporting food from restaurants to the Houston Wortham Center for a big benefit for the U.N. choir (and the U.N.) I think that fits fairly well in the mood of this full moon with my own moon in Scorpio. We can thank Eve for volunteering me.That sounds like one of those occasions where reluctance to be there can transform into a good time. With my 12th house Sun, social stuff is not real high on my favorite things to do list….but being Libra, a sign that is very social, I usually have a good time after getting dragged there kicking & screaming (metaphorically speaking . . .):-)One of the hardest places to be is the one you are in with your Cancer friend . . . concerned but knowing that stepping back in can be messy & painful. It can feel like being torn in two and in my experience, there is seldom a good way to choose what action to take . . . You have my sympathies. . . .

  13. Nothing ever freezes solid here. I can’t imagine having frozen ground.Last night was exciting. I had just turned off the light, almost ready to fall asleep when a big noisy something went roaring by the window. Now, I have no north windows so I can’t see out to the street so Maki and I ran down the stairs to peek out the door. Turns out it was a fire engine for two houses down. Then a few minutes later an ambulance showed up. Don’t know what exactly was going on. But it was noisy and those strobe lights were bouncing off Mrs. Goyne’s windows across the street.cats are nosy, aren’t they?

  14. cats are nosy, aren’t they? They’re just sensitive to their environments . . . in the interest of self-preservation of course! That and making sure their food arrives in a timely manner.Being rudely awakened by sirens is NOT something I miss. Many years ago I attended nursing school for a year & my dorm room was right above the Emergency Room entrance so sirens equate misery to me.

  15. Yeah, we had a warm spell and I put my potted bougainvillea out on the covered porch for an energizing shot of warmth. Then we had that cold snap. I forgot the plant, and it withered. i thought it might come back but it’s not responding to TLC. I think it’s a goner.Never can tell what this weather will do.

  16. Yeah, we had a warm spell and I put my potted bougainvillea out on the covered porch for an energizing shot of warmth.Ouch! Bougainvillea were one of my favorites when I lived in Tucson. Incredible displays of brilliant pink, fuchsia and red when they were going strong! It did freeze occasionally during the Winter there but I bet they had gone through the process of becoming dormant first. We lost 4 or 5 mature Apricot trees one year because they got hit with a hard freeze at the wrong stage in the dormancy cycle.For some reason, thinking about the necessity of dormancy/hibernation cycles for plants & animals makes me think of Capricorn – and the importance of giving ourselves periods of time when we become “fallow”. hmmmmmm

  17. Welcome Chrispito! And I agree about my very spoiled dog . . . she’s getting up there in dog years (she’ll be 13 yrs old on Sept 2nd), deaf as a post but her nose still works!! Do you have pets that share your life?

  18. Neith–the heck with the windows..I’m hearing you talk about work changes and returning to the deep well of your creativity– you go girl. In my experience, A Saturn return is one of the most awesome turnings of the wheels that I see in charts and after all the re-organzing called for, leads to a really satisfying , loong term cycle of fulfillment.In the second return, the satisfaction is often more simple, more REAL, more in tune with that creative side that hasn’t yet had TIME to be expresed. We are often willing to make SACRIFICES to be able to express this SELF.. so I see you returning to the home, to the gardens, and we have a lot in common! I love to garden too and it has become WAY IMPORTANT TO ME.I re- devoted myself to writing and homelife recently– but am still unraveling the OUTER commitments I am soooooo tired of– (AND, I might add, are TIRED OF ME..) I let PLUTO cause an explosion instead of planning ahead.. oh well, sometimes that’s just how it has to happen!Thanks for reading my blog–I am enjoying yours and Pat’s perspective IMMENSELY!!!!

  19. I re- devoted myself to writing and homelife recently– but am still unraveling the OUTER commitments I am soooooo tired of– (AND, I might add, are TIRED OF ME..) I let PLUTO cause an explosion instead of planning ahead.. oh well, sometimes that’s just how it has to happen!You have expressed what I’m feeling very well. And you are so right about it taking time to unravel the outer commitments . . . I know finding & training my replacement will be fun not to mention finding just the right opportunity to break the news to my boss. 🙂 However having Sun/Moon in Libra helps with both the tact & the cardinal “push”.Your post on exercise was LOL good! I’ve added your blog to my sidebar to encourage others who stop by here to drop over to yours too. Love your posts following the Moon’s movements! I started paying more attention to the Moon in the last few years and have found the subtle dance over my chart very useful. Following Mars transits are good too, especially for those of us with a Mars ruled sign on the ASC.Pat is one the best. I’ve learned so much from her posts . . . plus she’s a very good writer too.

  20. Hi… nothing new to add, other than I love your blog and I’m adding it to my links…

  21. Hi Neith! I have a cantankerous cat called Maggie who brings me equal amounts of…catlike joy? There’s nothing like a cuddle monster leaping up when you enter a room to yowl at you to….do…oh I can’t even begin to figure her out!

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